Why?

Someone told me that her marriage, mind you they just got married February of this year, is already on the rocks.  This was a shock to me since she has announced a couple of weeks ago that she was indeed pregnant again.  I say again because before they got married, she has already given birth to a bouncing baby boy.  In fact her baby is only six months old now…

I feel sorry for her, I really dont know the exact details of their breakup (of course she told me her side of the story but I believe that there's always two sides to this) and I don't know if this separation is already for good but either way, I know this is painful for her.  And what's worse is her first baby is sickly.  And now there's another baby coming…  I am thinking about this story, this situation, not because it's so peculiar, remarkable or something I would want to happen to me also.  At first my reaction was, why?  Why did she allow this to happen?  But that's wrong of me, I know.  I mean who in their right mind would willingly allow herself to be in the situation she is now?  It wasn't her fault.  It maybe not entirely the fault of her husband either but that's beside the point now.  I am thinking about their children.  The one needing their attention right now because of frequent visits to the hospital and the one still in her womb.  Sometimes I wonder… Why was she given this second baby when she's having a hard enough time with the one she now has… And when here I am, still awaiting for my first…  Sorry, I know that's wrong also.  I mean who am I to question God, but that was just a moment of self-pity… a moment of doubt… I often have bouts with my self over things like these.  But the moment I realize what I am doing, I immediately stop myself.  I repeatedly say sorry for doubting God's will and tell myself I should count my blessings instead of dwelling on the negative.  Like, what right have I to demand for something when He has given me so much already.  That's when I feel blessed and happy again.  So this was what I share with my friend:  Pray.  Offer all your hardships to the Lord and continue to believe that at the end of what seems like a dark tunnel is the light that will shine on the way to healing and contentment.  I tell her also that I often have to remind myself of this since there are times I waver but the important thing is that no matter what, one should not lose hope.  We all have our burdens in life… some more heavy than those of others but we should remeber that we are not given trials that we cannot overcome.  So we should continue to battle our demons and try to live life to its fullest!